Wednesday, March 9, 2011

coulda woulda shoulda

Today we have a blizzard. The roads are terrible and getting worse throughout the day. Yesterday, when the roads were fine, I got next to nothing done between sitting home waiting for the doctor to return my call and visiting my grandma a half hour away.

I shoulda spent today waiting for the doctor to call and gone grocery shopping yesterday. I coulda had a pantry full of food and a Momvan emptied of stuff destined for the Thrift Shop. I woulda felt less crabby doing what I wanted to do instead of waiting on other people. I shoulda gotten my errands run when the roads were good instead of holding the phone to my ear listening to Muzak. I coulda faced the rest of the week with less apprehension. I woulda felt less annoyed by my grandma if I didn't have the burden of Things To Do hanging around my neck.

I wonder if my good deeds count when my heart isn't in them.

18 comments:

  1. I think good deeds count more when your heart isn't in them. You know how being a friend means being there even when you'd rather be anywhere else? Yeah. Like that.

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  2. I'm pretty sure that if we were getting huge amounts of snow today I'd be in the fetal position! Just go ahead and make my reservation in a padded room! (At least I'd get out of the house ;))

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  3. yeah...because my first thought upon reading was......you have a Grandma?! and the experience of that, whatever it is, is finite. You will get groceries a thousand more times. And you wouldn't have traveled in that weather to see her today...whereas today she'll be inside remembering how nice it was to see you yesterday.
    * : )

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  4. ...and, p.s. it's Ash Wednesday, if you're missing some Ritual...
    ::wink::
    head over to church?

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  5. I am waiting for school to be called off...

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  6. Craziness, these March storms. I'm waiting for two service people to drop by, hoping they make it before my dentist appt. I'm holding off on shoveling until I'm more certain the snow has finished, or at least almost finished.
    Good intentions, as my husband says, ain't worth squat. Good deeds? Those are different.

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  7. I can only imagine that it is time for the snow to stop.

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  8. More snow? Better you than us my dear.... we are having cold, wet, rainy weather here today... only 39 degrees. BUT, my daffodils don't know that. They are smiling and blooming away.

    DI

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  9. I woke up this morning and was like WTH?
    This is a hard post for me. When I lost my Mom I became the guardian for my Grandmother. While the responsibility was a honor it was also bitter sweet. I got to spend her last days taking care of her just as she took care of me all these years. If you ask me I think your priorities to spend time with Grandma are spot on.

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  10. More snow! Ai karamba! My heart is with you.

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  11. WOW...talk about weather.

    I was keeping my fingers crossed that it doesn't rain on Sunday then I see this.

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  12. Going to visit your grandmother was important. I know you're feeling a bit frustrated, but take a big deep breath, let it out, and try to relax. Look at the snow as a gift of time -- to be at home with your family, to read a good book, to watch Colin Firth in a movie.

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  13. Yikes. You sound grumpy. I can't blame you. But I really hope it goes away. Fast.

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  14. I gassed up yesterday and broke the $40-mark for the first time ever. That would have made me more crabby doing that in the snow and dropping that much $ on gas.

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  15. I think the good deeds probably count more when you don't want to do them but you do them anyway.

    I hate days like those when I know I should have done something the day before and can't now. Boo.

    And double boo to this stupid weather. I have had no sleep for the past two days and then when I saw my neighbor trying to shovel out her driveway I went over to help. Then I ended up snowblowing my driveway too. All in all it took me almost 2 hours and the kids' entire nap. Now I have had zero time to eat anything and my back is killing me. Where the hell is spring????? BAH!

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  16. They do, GG. They do.

    Same storm came through here, but not north enough to leave more than a couple of inches -- at the moment.

    Deep breath, hot bath. Two weeks from now, I'll bet it's all gone...

    Pearl

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  17. Good deeds always count. I did decide to go out in the snow. And I have nothing to show for it but a broken car. I shoulda stayed home!

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  18. I agree with Cha Cha - doing something nice when you don't want to do it earns us an extra karmic gold star, if you ask me. And usually improves my mood in the process.

    That snow? Shoulda fallen here. Just, y'know, FYI.

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